What Ever Happened to Girl Power?

My six year old daughter went to a birthday party this week. She came home with red nails, glitter on her eyelids, and a whole new repertoire of dance moves. They weren’t the hokey-pokey kind. While she told me about the makeover and the fashion show, I glanced over at my two year old, who was chewing on a Barbie doll. A real, big-boobed, no-hipped, poofy blond Barbie. Then my four year old asked me to please help her find her favourite nightgown- the pink one, with Ariel and Cinderella and a scantily-clad Pocohantas. Ignore for now the corporately-marketed, racist, BPA-laden, sweatshop-produced ethical dilemmas screaming from every corner of my living room. The anti-feminist one was dreadful enough. I realized in that moment that every shred of evidence pointed unmercifully towards the depressing verdict that I am a failed feminist mother.
I never imagined being both a feminist and a mom would be difficult. I knew I’d raise my girls to be strong and creative. They could shave their heads if they wanted to and play with cars and grow up to be feminist activist poets and doctors. How hard could it be?
Well, impossibly hard, apparently. Parenting in general is more difficult than anyone lets on, but trying to maintain a respectful feminism while raising three girls is enough to send me back to bed by 9 a.m. with a fistful of dark chocolate and debilitating despair. Because along with my own insecurities and inclination towards scolding, I’m doing battle with an ugly and monstrous girl culture, whose insidious strength is vastly underestimated- at least it was by me while I optimistically bought gender-neutral newborn pajamas, thinking I was well prepared for the battle.
I’m not a feminist theorist, so I don’t know the academically accepted view of the direction we’re heading, but it sure seems to me that the girl culture I grew up in thirty years ago was light years ahead of the one my daughters are navigating. Yes, I played with Barbies and took a solemn oath to be a good mother to my Cabbage Patch Doll, but my memories are of climbing bales on the farm and playing Kick the Can at birthday parties. My friends and I had no idea we were supposed to be pretty or thin or sexy. When we watched TV it was Inspector Gadget and She-Ra, Princess of Power. I know She-Ra wasn’t a model of feminist activism, but at least she was a princess of power. The princesses bombarding my pre-school aged daughters – in library books, movies, every imaginable piece of clothing and merchandise- are mostly beautiful and powerless, waiting for their prince while they, well, look beautiful.
It’s all so cliché and offensive and makes me wonder what exactly happened to the feminist movement of the last five decades. Where are all the women who want girls to be strong and brave and smart and authentic? Not working in the marketing department of Disney, apparently, or any of the major children’s book or clothing companies. My children are six years old and younger, and already I’m sad about the messages they receive every day about what it means to be a girl. We haven’t even entered into the world of eating disorders and sexting and Katy Perry singing about being a kissable, touchable teenage dream in her skin-tight jeans.
A few years ago photographer Lauren Greenfield released a book called Girl Culture. It’s not exactly inspiring reading. The photographs- of young girls at diet camp, men watching a stripper while simultaneously watching football on a big screen, or a young woman receiving breast implants, for example- don’t offer a lot of hope for anxious trying-to-be-feminist moms. When my two year old ran up with her spectacular full-body smile after I’d read through the book, I burst into tears. My feminist literature courses and unshaven legs have left me despairingly ill-prepared for the task of protecting that kind of innocent brilliance from any one of the dominant-culture forces lurking at birthday parties and in Greenfield’s book.
Which I guess just proves that feminism is still counter-cultural, though I think our feminist mothers of the sixties would be devastated to hear it. I still find it excruciatingly difficult to find female heroes and role models for my girls. At least the famous variety. I can think of a pile of heroes in my family and church and neighbourhood. I even know kids who still play Kick the Can, and mothers who are raising really strong, stellar girls, and brilliant women who recommend good books to my daughters. Which is the only thing that saves me from complete despair, and is what being countercultural has always meant- creating our own subcultures that try to be beautiful and hopeful and true. We may not have the funding or marketing pull of Disney (nor the fan base of Rihanna) but at least we can give our girls a little bit of breathing room to be kids without having to be sexy, or teenagers without having to be skinny. Though I might need a subculture that allows for one or two Disney nightgowns.

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